eating me

i'm at patrick's internet cafe right now with maniac. i will be off to gunbound after this. just an update about what's happening on everything. let me start with daot and dottie's wedding anniversary last july 5. was that two years ago when we met hazel, shine, and honey? wow. time is really surprising huh. anyways, on that same day, chucky celebrated his birthday. we didn't get to raise some glasses and broke some bottles but i think he had fun with his classmates.

as for me, i have been absent in my classes for almost 2 weeks already. i just hope the teachers didn't come up with an idea of dropping me. i am afraid i am back with my old self again, i don't want it but it just come up like an old nightmare. everything is messed up with my studies. my graduation on march is getting blurred and so is my head. i couldn't focus and i am getting melancholic. i have no one to talk to, no one to express what is inside me and all and it is slowly eating me from inside.

aaah, taba. you're getting stupid again. you're not using your head again. i could not do things right anymore since she left. with all these, i can't blame anyone but me.

help.